As I sit here tonight, my bags are packed, the apartment is clean, and all
laundry is done, I have one lingering question: is my heart prepared and ready
for Africa? I have the ability to do all the above, but one thing I can't do is
prepare my heart; that is God's job. My role is to make myself available to
Him. I do believe the Lord has been faithful in providing the way for me to go
to Africa. I am honored and humbled by all that has happened the last
few/couple of weeks and am excited to see how the Lord is going to work the
next 10 days! Being faithful, available, and teachable are the traits of a true
disciple of Christ. I pray this is true of me and if not, may the Lord have His
way in my heart, mind, and will.
Today I was asked what I expected in going to Africa. Two things came to
mind: confirmation and growth (to more like Jesus and more in love with Jesus).
I feel like a new chapter is starting and I have no idea what is ahead. A lot
of uncertainties, but one thing that is certain is Jesus. Letting Him lead my
life from here on out is all that I am focused on. I can't take control
anymore. I don't care what trials and tests are ahead, I just want Jesus. His
grace is sufficient for me.
My heart is heavy as I end this, but I choose to lay my concerns, burdens, and heartache
at the foot of the Cross. All glory and honor to God.